Steen's Land

alexsteen@gmail.com — Sun, 14 Sep 2008 06:12:35 GMT

Kyle is settling in Vancouver and that's good. I know it is and I hope he fits in with the team and makes friends, but damn it really is hard around here and Matty feels it too. We knew this was going to happen and that things would be different but saying it isn't the same as not being able to see someone that is a part of you. The three of us have been through so much and we're strong and things will be okay but it definitely doesn't make it any easier.

That reminds me, Kyle, we're going to get the web cam plus take lots of video especially of Lex so you can get weekly updates. Plus Lex will love his phone calls too.

We all will.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Sun, 03 Aug 2008 08:50:32 GMT

I can't believe the summer is almost over. It means so many things most of which I don't want to even think about.

What I do keep thinking is strange and maybe parents go through it. Like, am I being a good dad to little Lex... is there more I could have/should have done for him....

but then I watch him and see how big he's getting, how smart he is, and see him with Kyle and Matt, and thing maybe I haven't done so bad after all. Plus how could he lose? He has me yes, but he also has the two of them as well and they are so great with him and he loves them to death.

I guess sometimes, I just overanalyze.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Mon, 23 Jun 2008 04:31:14 GMT

Lex is getting so big, it's crazy. I marvel all the time just how big he is every time I see him. He's been spending a lot of time around since Kyle is a bit laid up and all with his cast and stuff. Poor Kyle. He has th worst luck. But Matty and I don't mind taking care of him either. I rather like carrying him around when he needs it. He will have quite the tan in a few weeks when the cast does come off. Lex has made quite the neat design on it though. I'll have to talk pictures. So for now we're staying close to home, but that's never a bad thing. Ever.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Sun, 18 May 2008 06:12:06 GMT

Someone very important had a birthday and I couldn't let it pass without saying. Matty and I have good plans for our little Elf *grins* I figure as long as it's the three of us and Little Lex, it should be all good right?

Love you Kyle
:)

alexsteen@gmail.com — Wed, 02 Apr 2008 19:36:11 GMT

I hate visiting people I love in the hospital. Not become I don't love them but because I hate to see them in pain and there's nothing I can do. I wish to god I could just turn a knob or flip a switch and make things better.

Part of me is glad the season is practically just about over. I don't have the energy to focus on hockey and focus on Kyle. And I'm sorry but in this case, as was with Matty, hockey comes in 2nd place. Popular or not, that's how I feel.

*sigh*

alexsteen@gmail.com — Fri, 28 Dec 2007 05:11:43 GMT

I always knew Christmas with my family was crazy but adding in Kyle and Matt's in various ways? Just made it insane, but I wouldn't trade it, our first Christmas together, really together, you know? We took the baby all over so he could get to visit with all his extended familes. It was nice and I love this time of year, decorating, all the snow, just yeah. I know I'm babbling. I do it a lot.

The team wants me to go to the doctor after the first of the year, just to follow up after that hit in the head with that stick but really I feel fine. I felt fine pretty much after it happened too, but I'll do what they say so they don't stop me from playing.

Someone asked me about the article comparing me and dad, and whether that was just a spin or I really meant it, and it's all true. I love being compared to my dad and if I have any thing like he had with his career, I will always consider myself lucky. And I do feel that now, with playing for the Leafs, with having Matty and Kyle in my life as well as Baby Lex.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Sun, 14 Oct 2007 22:04:20 GMT

Here we are once again at another season. I sound so smart *laughs*

I got an assist on some guy named Mat's goal, you know the one that put him at the top of the record books. Just a little thing *grin*

Seriously, that was awesome and I'm so happy for Mats too.

And Matty had a four point night a few days ago too, which is awesome. Plus Kyle is feeling better and better and will get on skates and be stronger too. I won't lie, I've been worried about my boys but things are good and they will keep on like that too. I know it.

Speaking of boys, we went to watch Matty's cousin Tomas play. And when did he grow up? I'm just saying. Never will be as cute as Matty but the attractiveness does run in the family, mostly to Matt.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Mon, 03 Sep 2007 20:53:52 GMT

The tournament, everything, it all went so well. Thank you to everyone who helped out, contributed, and just otherwise made the whole thing just amazing. I can't put into words how much it means to me, to the whole family.

And for the record, I have the two most amazing boyfriends one could ever ask for, even if they do try and get us killed in the golf cart. All things being said, that wouldn't have been a bad way to go, if not for missing out on later that night, and that.... well some things go beyond words.

I'm just saying...

alexsteen@gmail.com — Sun, 01 Jul 2007 03:26:00 GMT

It is good the summer so far. Matt, Kyle and I have just been trying to spend as much time as possible together. We've gotten quite a bit of time with little Lex too, which I love more than I can even say. He is getting so big everyday. He's crawling like crazy and he might even start walking a little bit here in a while or so.

We thought about going away, going on vacation or something. We'll see. We're still talking about getting a bigger place, something that is all ours. We're all excited about that possiblity too.

Oh and before I forget. Welcome to Vesa and Mark to the team. The three of us are excited about you guys coming to be a part of the team.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Mon, 28 May 2007 02:13:30 GMT

I'd forgotten how much I love the summer. Don't get me wrong, I want it to be as short as possible but this is good. Kyle's birthday was a bit ago and Matt and I had fun with that, well we all did.

We've been thinking about getting a new place, something of our own, something better with more space and that we all can share. Plus it would be nice to have a room for Little Alex, all for his own when he's over here too. We haven't looked a lot but we have a while to figure it all out.

Mom and Dad want me to come and visit with Alex and I want to bring Kyle and Matt too. Plus we will probably visit their families as well. I don't know if the baby will come too nor not. More things to discuss I suppose *grin*

alexsteen@gmail.com — Sun, 13 May 2007 03:48:26 GMT

Being in Moscow was a lot of fun. I enjoyed playing for Sweden but I'll be honest, the loss it really hurts. But having Matty and Kyle here, cheering me on, it helped a lot.

I don't know now. I guess we'll go home and have the summer to spend together, probably here there and everywhere with the families for part of it at least.

But now I guess we have playoffs to watch and the new season to look forward to.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Mon, 02 Apr 2007 02:14:06 GMT

I don't know whatt to say. We play so good one night and then... I don't know. I need to be doing more, getting those pucks in the net especially now, when every point counts.

We can't lose focus. We can do this and make the playoffs. The team is a strong one and we all just need to stick together and win these games. That's all I'm saying about that right now.

There are other things but I think I will wait for later, if at all, to mention those. Some things should stay out of public, at least for some time.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Thu, 22 Feb 2007 03:13:22 GMT

It was fun having dad spend time with the team, well all the dad's. Mr Ferguson and his dad spent time with me and dad and it was fun catching up on old times. It's strange, that was just everyday for me, growing up and hanging out with them. But it's so funny to see a lot of my teammates get weird about dad. Then I have to step back and think and yeah it could be a big deal.

Not to me, to me, he's just dad.

I think I'm getting my feet under me at last. I do feel more confident on the ice instead of slushing though it. They've been playing me and Matty together and I think it's really going well. Now we just need Kyle to not be broken and it would be really good.

There are trade rumours but I don't want to talk about them. There are better things to concentrate on.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Mon, 15 Jan 2007 23:01:52 GMT

Ask me 6 questions no matter how personal, private or random, I have to answer them honestly. In turn, you MUST post this message in your own journal.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Sat, 09 Dec 2006 21:31:52 GMT

Things have been... interesting. I'm not having the greatest time of it on the ice and it's frustrating but I'm hoping things will get better there.

But I have other things to keep my mind occupied. Namely Matt and Kyle. They've been great and things with them are, amazing in ways I didn't know. Suddenly I have my best friends and boyfriends who are two in the same.

Plus, yes it's true, I am a father. Surprised is an understatement but we're working things out and he is the most precious thing.... following closely by baby Kyle. God and I thought he was adorable now *grin*

alexsteen@gmail.com — Sat, 28 Oct 2006 16:17:26 GMT

I don't know if I like moving around the lines, or would rather just be on one and stay there. But I am playing well and that's the important thing. Got to play a while on the line with Darcy and I don't think I hid the excitement too well.

But then I got to play on the line with Mats and Kyle which is always fun because Kyle and I always have fun playing together. On a line, I meant on a line. Need to clarify that or Matty will hurt me.

Now if the team could turn it around, get back what we had earlier. I don't have to tell you that the last few games? No so good for the locker room.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Mon, 02 Oct 2006 20:19:57 GMT

Preseason has been going pretty well. I think spending time with the Sedins and Markus Naslund this summer has helped me. I think my game is better. It is so close to the beginning of the season I can hardly wait. It's still a bit up in the air which line I'm playing and whether Mr Maurice will keep me or send me to the Marlies. At least Kyle's a definite lock to be here.

That being said, losses whether they're preseason or not, are never good. But the team does look good for the most part and the new guys are fitting in really well. *laugh* Have you seen Gill? Dude I didn't know guys could be that tall, and in his skates... yeah and I thought Eric was tall.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Mon, 14 Aug 2006 19:50:15 GMT

Well at least now I know why Kyle has been so busy lately
*GRIN* Glad to see you're having fun and enjoying your summer *laughs*

I should be getting back to Toronto sometime this weekend. It's been great being home, visiting the family. Plus skating in the rink with my dad is always fun too. Can't wait to see everyone and meet the new people too.

Where has the summer gone?!

alexsteen@gmail.com — Sun, 23 Jul 2006 23:10:29 GMT

Sweden is nice but I can't wait to get back to Toronto. Though the Summer Festival? Yeah I wouldn't miss that for anything. And there was a lot to see too *grins*

I wish I had something else to say but there are new flavours of Absolut and we are testing them out while we barbeque on the back deck.

*grins*

alexsteen@gmail.com — Thu, 22 Jun 2006 05:08:39 GMT

I just wanted to say Happy Birthday to Yann! I hope you have had a great day and celebrate well.

I am in Sweden right now, visiting family and working on my tan. All I now is that the summer is far far too short. Dad always said the same thing. That being said, I really can't wait to get back to camp in a few months. No longer the rookie *laughs*

alexsteen@gmail.com — Thu, 04 May 2006 19:56:49 GMT

I just don't get it. We played good for pretty much all season. I had a good year. So did Kyle, Mats and Darcy, all of us. We worked so hard and even know it's just hard to know that it's over just like that.

I wanted to make my dad proud, to have him watch me play in the playoffs and do good. Now, I don't know.

Kyle and I barely said a word that night when we got home, both still wrapped up in our own thoughts. Even now we're still a bit bummed out.

*sigh* This is not a feeling I like but I don't know how to get rid of it just yet either. Watching the playoffs helps a little, hockey is always good. But there are times when I can't help but think that could've been us out there.

God I'm lame, I need a vacation and a lot of mindless activity....

alexsteen@gmail.com — Mon, 27 Mar 2006 01:34:07 GMT

Maybe I shouldn't take it so hard but I can't help it. Dad used to tell such great stories about NHL playoffs and what fun they were and I wanted the Leafs to get there. I want to do it for the team and this city, and I wanted to do it for dad too.

I'm not giving up, I'm not really. It's just frustrating. Maybe I do need a new hobby, or at least try and not focus totally on hockey and the game. Right now, I think I'll just veg a bit. Yeah that sounds good.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Tue, 28 Feb 2006 09:16:55 GMT

Going on vacation what just what I needed. Lots of time in the sun and at the beach and watching some really really pretty things. And now, I have a very nice tan which is very much an accomplishment for someone with fair skin like mine.

And now, it's back to Toronto. And tomorrow is a very very very good day, not that I'm biased or anything like that.

Though the best thing ever was seeing Sweden win the gold medal. That was the best thing, I think it was better even than the won in 1994. Someday I would like to have that chance too. Tre Konor!

alexsteen@gmail.com — Wed, 01 Feb 2006 08:06:39 GMT

Everyone keeps saying I should be happy for the goals I had and how well I'm playing but I can't help it. Not winning like we were makes everything else not seem so much fun or great.

It's great to have Darcy back on the ice and we're hoping Bryan and Eric will be close behind him.

Dad says this kind of thing is normal and we're playing good; that we'll put everything together again. I really hope he's right. I trust his judgement, I do. I just want to win more; to have him be proud of me, as silly as that sounds. *sigh*

I need to be more busy. Boredeom is driving me nuts.

alexsteen@gmail.com — Wed, 11 Jan 2006 05:52:00 GMT

How 'bout that goal??! Yeah yeah we lost, but that was a highlight reel goal.

It would have been nice to rest but we're on the way back to Toronto tonight. Good that I can kind of sleep on the flight back. Or not if one of the late night poker games gets going. THose are better than sleep *laughs*